So much has changed...

It has been a rough couple weeks I tell you. Life has been great, but so many things have changed and I don't know that I'm ready for it all!

Of course, Taylor had his surgery! And he has been doing really well. But it was really hard on me to watch him go under, and see him come back up to his room groggy and sore. And it was hard to watch him the first couple weeks as it really did take a lot out of him. He's making up for lost eating now...and is doing well.  Back to his old, normal self and for that I'm grateful. And...there is no more snoring. And he doesn't stop breathing in the middle of the night anymore. That is a great relief!!

Last weekend, Andrew packed up all three kids and headed to Grande Prairie for the long weekend. I stayed home. I had a wedding and a couple photo sessions. I haven't had the house to myself for that long in five years!! Boy did I miss my family! I had never been away from Mya overnight. I nursed Mya one last time before they left, and as they pulled out of the driveway I stood there crying! It was very hard to watch them go...knowing that my life as I had known it for the past five years was never going to be the same. Sounds deep I know but it is the truth. No more nursing. No more pregnancy. No more babies. It was just plain hard!

I am thankful that I was busy all weekend. Besides taking pictures, I worked. I got caught up, focused quite a bit of my attention on my business and where I'd like it to go. I sewed the cutest little dress for Mya (it doesn't fit over her head). I cleaned. I kept busy!!

Having them come home was awesome. I am proud of Drew for taking on the task...I have to admit that I don't think I'd drive up there with the kids on my own. But he took it all in stride and did awesome.

So...as if all that isn't hard enough on a mom. Taylor started kindergarten. He was soooooo excited...and I was excited that he was excited!! He got all dressed up and we drove to school. And the teacher just whisked him away! No hug! No good luck! Nothing. That was it. He was immersed in school. Truthfully I was okay with it all on Wednesday. Now today...not so much! I'm actually having a pretty hard time with it. Maybe it's the fact that he is now to cool to give me a hug at school. Seriously. What is up with that? Really! I thought I had a good couple years before all that started...apparently not!

And...Grace starts playschool next week. She is so excited. Again,  I am excited for her enthusiasm. But why do they have to grow up so fast? 

That all said...all these events have caused me to think. And I got a lot or prioritizing done in my mind this past weekend. I am enjoying my days. All the moments I have with my kids. And we are having so much fun these days. After my break, I have become a happier mom. We are all laughing and playing more and I think the weekend at least was exactly what I needed.  

Comments

[Jess]

I am glad you were able to have a break and 'reset' yourself, I think that is really important. As for all the growing up in your household I can relate, sometimes I just stare at my boy and think how did you get this big?

Jess